i would loved to say goodbye to hold you in my eyes forever
stuck in a maze of love never wanting to get out sure we had our
ups and downs and our doubts and fights but at the end of the night
i knew it was you i loved and you i made my world <3 . i love you
today and ill miss you tomorrow ill kiss you never this is nothing but sorrow.
be good princess <3
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
ahh!
12 thousand to Adelphi.. =D
not going though f that lol
StonyBrook <3
wasted conversation i guess but w.e lo que pasa pasa
not going though f that lol
StonyBrook <3
wasted conversation i guess but w.e lo que pasa pasa
Monday, January 25, 2010
Thursday, January 21, 2010
fml
Prom was overrated to me,You made me want it though the thought of matching and pictures . I wanted to share that w/ you no1 else . No prom for me *thumbsdown*
:'( i'll miss you that day more than most .
I'm here wondering all alone is there anything to get back to the past to what made us both happy ?
na :l enjoy prom and your hamptons retreat .
at least the money for prom goes towards tattoos. and my vacation w. justin :D haha
:'( i'll miss you that day more than most .
I'm here wondering all alone is there anything to get back to the past to what made us both happy ?
na :l enjoy prom and your hamptons retreat .
at least the money for prom goes towards tattoos. and my vacation w. justin :D haha
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Have fun Translating
Mi amor tiene frio Esta frizado Desea tu calor Llora por tu cabeza Acostado en el Quitame este frio Vivir con un corazon Frizado no es Vivir es ser nada Sin el amor no hay Rason para tu existencia El amor me salvo El amor me mato Ya se ha frizado este corazon Nunca mas amar y ha este edad Es una gran crimen Robastes mi corazon Lo aplastastes y to te importo Todvia tengo mi cerebro pensando En Ti Solo En Ti mi amor .
Nuestra relacion ya es historia tu y lo ya
encontramos el fine te extrano todo el dia cada hora . .
Accepter que me dejastes es duro pero lo tengo que hacer hasta que
tu regreses pero se que esto ya se termino pero no
puedo acceptarlo isi yote amo tu me amas me isistes creer que
esto era para siempre que siempre tratemos pero TU al fin me
dejastes TU al fin me dejastes solo :'( nunca pare
te extranar tu amor mi angel hablemos algun dia otravez
isi dios lo quiere .
te quiero mi amor que estes bien.
Always and Forever
Everytime im by your side, is when im really at home.
Always and forever, thats the pinky promise we made.
You're the reason why im smilin at the start of the day.
And i hope you kno i mean it everytime that i say.
I love you always and forever, it will always be the same.
things may not be the same they never will be but my love stays the same
i'll always be here my angel.. <3 i love you so so so so much
always and forever 8.27 214.221
Always and forever, thats the pinky promise we made.
You're the reason why im smilin at the start of the day.
And i hope you kno i mean it everytime that i say.
I love you always and forever, it will always be the same.
things may not be the same they never will be but my love stays the same
i'll always be here my angel.. <3 i love you so so so so much
always and forever 8.27 214.221
I pushed when I should of pulled
Took it all back if I could I put that on my soul
And I would make a top notch good listener
If you could block off a little time out to give it here
Since we went our separate paths Life really
Hasnt been the same .
Never thought about the world with out you
And I promise, I'll never say another bad word about you
Strange things my imagination might do
Take a breath reflect on what we've been through
Or am I just going crazy cause I miss you
Took it all back if I could I put that on my soul
And I would make a top notch good listener
If you could block off a little time out to give it here
Since we went our separate paths Life really
Hasnt been the same .
Never thought about the world with out you
And I promise, I'll never say another bad word about you
Strange things my imagination might do
Take a breath reflect on what we've been through
Or am I just going crazy cause I miss you
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Listen to me, baby
I gave you everything
My love, and my ring
And you, oh what you laid at me
And I don't wanna see you again
I don't ever wanna see you again
But I stuck by you till the end
And my conscience is clear
And I can move on from here
But I wish I could say the same for you, baby
soon enough you wont have too.. we both go our separate ways even more after graduation .
I gave you everything
My love, and my ring
And you, oh what you laid at me
And I don't wanna see you again
I don't ever wanna see you again
But I stuck by you till the end
And my conscience is clear
And I can move on from here
But I wish I could say the same for you, baby
soon enough you wont have too.. we both go our separate ways even more after graduation .
Monday, January 18, 2010
why ?
I never been one to focused on all this bullshit "do me , bla bla, go out have fun" that whole bullshit na i feel like shit im sulking im depressed so wtf that shit wont things any better neither does hearing a voice without love its the same person but a completely different heart i can't even feel the so called love you'll always have for me
in your voice and yet again it does nothing but hurt me the only relief i have is in memories. that are all in my head and the single ticket in my wallet . everything else gone but i dont need letters to know how much you used to love me i can't even write a post without breaking into tears. i dont know when this will be over but i hope soon . There isn't any eternal love you'll have for me just the fact we spent that much time as a part of each other . I love you and you were just happy with me at the moment. but that is completely okay i've begged you time after time to not give up on us i tried to be the one and make you the girl for me you already were and it's all gone just nothing anymore. our story is over nothing else to write obviously no way to edit our story but its over and you've moved on and i don't know when i will but it wont be for awhile i won't let it happen just to hold on to the only memories we've had i should have never gotten mad at you for not kissing me in front michelle or w.e and told you about it should've instead held you hugged you told you that i loved you with all my heart kissed you on the cheek and let you leave maybe then the weekend wouldve been better maybe you wouldve reconsidered leaving me and dropping this but thats in the past now along with the love you have for me and everything else .dumb enough to put the songs you tell me on my itunes and they play during writing a blog wtf =/ why did this have to happen man why now so close to the end to what would've been a great start for us as freshmen in college going toschool in the city i would've fucked dorming and gone to queens college or hunter or something idc and just did transit and lunch everyday and sleeping over and just being happy together . but things don't always workout life isn't perfect great not this already gone shit comes on WHAT THE FUCK WHY CANT I GET YOU OUT OF MY FUCKING HEAD JUST LEAVE MAN JUST GO KEEP DOING THE THINGS YOU DO JUST FUCKING GO GET OUT OF MY HEAD LEAVE ME ALONE . just know that i need you more than i ever have. i love you bullshit about loving someone enough to let them go :'( i love you hunny
in your voice and yet again it does nothing but hurt me the only relief i have is in memories. that are all in my head and the single ticket in my wallet . everything else gone but i dont need letters to know how much you used to love me i can't even write a post without breaking into tears. i dont know when this will be over but i hope soon . There isn't any eternal love you'll have for me just the fact we spent that much time as a part of each other . I love you and you were just happy with me at the moment. but that is completely okay i've begged you time after time to not give up on us i tried to be the one and make you the girl for me you already were and it's all gone just nothing anymore. our story is over nothing else to write obviously no way to edit our story but its over and you've moved on and i don't know when i will but it wont be for awhile i won't let it happen just to hold on to the only memories we've had i should have never gotten mad at you for not kissing me in front michelle or w.e and told you about it should've instead held you hugged you told you that i loved you with all my heart kissed you on the cheek and let you leave maybe then the weekend wouldve been better maybe you wouldve reconsidered leaving me and dropping this but thats in the past now along with the love you have for me and everything else .dumb enough to put the songs you tell me on my itunes and they play during writing a blog wtf =/ why did this have to happen man why now so close to the end to what would've been a great start for us as freshmen in college going toschool in the city i would've fucked dorming and gone to queens college or hunter or something idc and just did transit and lunch everyday and sleeping over and just being happy together . but things don't always workout life isn't perfect great not this already gone shit comes on WHAT THE FUCK WHY CANT I GET YOU OUT OF MY FUCKING HEAD JUST LEAVE MAN JUST GO KEEP DOING THE THINGS YOU DO JUST FUCKING GO GET OUT OF MY HEAD LEAVE ME ALONE . just know that i need you more than i ever have. i love you bullshit about loving someone enough to let them go :'( i love you hunny
Fuck.
Its' not like i felt you slipping away
Never thought this day would really
Come seeing you in anothers arms
Your lips all over him, like you did
With me true life moves on, I guess
This is due to to the fact that I might
Have done you wrong once too many.
I said i was sorry, i tried my hardest
Honest i did
Ain't no future after this "its been over george"
thats what i go by now. sure i love you and miss you
doesn't mean much at least now we don't need to worry
about graduation being the end of us . We doesn't exist .
and that wasn't my choice it was yours to leave me
it was that hard to be with me ? smh.
Feel bad? dont read then. i'm not looking for anyone's pity or comment about this blog
i miss you damnit. come back soon seriously WE as in you and me can work this out .
if we can't then this whole thing just wasn't real love that's worse than losing you
214.221.827
Never thought this day would really
Come seeing you in anothers arms
Your lips all over him, like you did
With me true life moves on, I guess
This is due to to the fact that I might
Have done you wrong once too many.
I said i was sorry, i tried my hardest
Honest i did
Ain't no future after this "its been over george"
thats what i go by now. sure i love you and miss you
doesn't mean much at least now we don't need to worry
about graduation being the end of us . We doesn't exist .
and that wasn't my choice it was yours to leave me
it was that hard to be with me ? smh.
Feel bad? dont read then. i'm not looking for anyone's pity or comment about this blog
i miss you damnit. come back soon seriously WE as in you and me can work this out .
if we can't then this whole thing just wasn't real love that's worse than losing you
214.221.827
Sunday, January 17, 2010
ah.
One More Chance, I'm Not Even
Looking For A New Romance
Thats So True, My Love For You Is
Limitless My Only Rhyme Is To Call
Myself The Chemist of Your Heart.
Its Now Or Never Girl Someday
We'll Cross Paths Again Till Then
I'll Keep My Head Up, Yet My
Eyes Shut To Love And That Girl.
Whoever She Is I Simply Just Wont Know.
She Nothing Like You She So Much Less.
<3 te quiero.
Looking For A New Romance
Thats So True, My Love For You Is
Limitless My Only Rhyme Is To Call
Myself The Chemist of Your Heart.
Its Now Or Never Girl Someday
We'll Cross Paths Again Till Then
I'll Keep My Head Up, Yet My
Eyes Shut To Love And That Girl.
Whoever She Is I Simply Just Wont Know.
She Nothing Like You She So Much Less.
<3 te quiero.
<3
when she calls life is at its best
when she calls im loving life
when she calls tears dry up
when she calls i can feel her soft lips
when she calls life make sense
when she calls i remember when i used collect cents for a metrocard to see her
when she calls love comes back in a twentyfold
when she calls i remember the happy days
when she calls everything is perfect and i feel complete for that minute and 20
too bad she never calls. <3
i love you have a good day .
Saturday, January 16, 2010
The End. <3
i dont deserve you back..i was a bad boyfriend simply that i did too much stupid shit and i wasn't there for you enough..but i have to admit i never doubted how pure my love for you was...if you care about me then you'll ask me this blog is done ... i swear my love for you doesnt end. and you'll forever be in my memory not through letters and pictures those are gone but on my own skin. petal #1 i swear i'd do anything and everything to be back with you i prayed that you would take me back and we be happy together but i guess god just doesnt want it to be. im sorry for everything i've done out of all my "promises" the one i know i cant break is that i'll wait for you that if you ever come back i'll be there i hope you enjoy prom im not saying this for pity or to feel bad i really do want you to be happy i realize theres no more WE its just you and me on two completely different sides your doing your thing and i see its working . i dont know how long it will take me to get over you even if i do get over you that doesnt mean i wont love you i'm really confused about my life in general right now i have no clue what my next step is or what to do but you've felt like this before and because of me i really am sorry ! and sadly i have a feeling that the amount of tears in these nearly 2 months has been the same as the ones you've had in all our time together . im not fighting depression due to losing you because i dont know how to.
i know deep down you want me back damn it i just wish you would show an ounce of it =/ i know you looked forward to prom since we were freshmen and its coming soon :D oh god i hate this so much you dont understand alyssa ! you dont i look like death 24/7 its out there man im not the same and i wont be everybody says get over her let it go but i cant its not easy how could you leave me and love again so quickly...
all these fucking songs you tell me to hear you know they make me cry you add to my pain fuck crawling all this bullshit i hate it there is none of that for us =/ there isnt a fucking us we arent shit anymore were just two people about to graduate ..remember that day you said you would treat me like everyone else.. hurt alot but then ive done thngs that hurt you also and im very sorry for all that baby . i mean alyssa i'll never be with you again and losing you has hurt me so much and it still does to this second as i cry while typing this im not ashamed of it though you gave me a heart you made me care about something enough to cry about and be willing to give it my all and for that i thank you i thank you for the time we spent together for the 27th that i gave your gifts for us trying again with a 214/221 date for the amazing summer for everything for giving yourself to me for being with me for the madden for the jeans thank you for being the best girlfriend you could be . this shouldnt be happening you and me should be together as a hapyp couple i miss you ill always love you and want to be with you .
just one more chance ..just one and i know i would never ever do anything wrong ...
this is my one and only heartbreak...the girl i fell in love with that the day i saw her little gay myspace picture i knew she would be something big and important to my life
you dont have a place in my heart you cant when you are my heart and when you are my world. i'll never call you mine =/ and thats not okay with me . thank you for everything that you've done since we met thank you for being as beautiful as you are for lsitening to me sometimes when i asked not to wear makeup for me because i wanted you to know you were naturally beautiful because i wanted you to feel like a queen like my very own princess. god gives love and i dare him to try and take it away from me i'd do anything and everything for you please be happy for the both of us alyssa okay dont hold back from love if love comes to you again for someone else love them and dont be afraid. everyone says dont let them ever know your there act like you dont care you deserve to know everything and i am here alyssa i wont ignore you i wont do the things i did before :'( im sorry my angel i am things happen for a reason and we stopped talking for you to be finally happy happier than you ever have been and im glad be good
dont forget not only a piece but you are my heart
p.s take your gloucoma drops i'll miss you everyday babygirl mwuah.
i know deep down you want me back damn it i just wish you would show an ounce of it =/ i know you looked forward to prom since we were freshmen and its coming soon :D oh god i hate this so much you dont understand alyssa ! you dont i look like death 24/7 its out there man im not the same and i wont be everybody says get over her let it go but i cant its not easy how could you leave me and love again so quickly...
all these fucking songs you tell me to hear you know they make me cry you add to my pain fuck crawling all this bullshit i hate it there is none of that for us =/ there isnt a fucking us we arent shit anymore were just two people about to graduate ..remember that day you said you would treat me like everyone else.. hurt alot but then ive done thngs that hurt you also and im very sorry for all that baby . i mean alyssa i'll never be with you again and losing you has hurt me so much and it still does to this second as i cry while typing this im not ashamed of it though you gave me a heart you made me care about something enough to cry about and be willing to give it my all and for that i thank you i thank you for the time we spent together for the 27th that i gave your gifts for us trying again with a 214/221 date for the amazing summer for everything for giving yourself to me for being with me for the madden for the jeans thank you for being the best girlfriend you could be . this shouldnt be happening you and me should be together as a hapyp couple i miss you ill always love you and want to be with you .
just one more chance ..just one and i know i would never ever do anything wrong ...
this is my one and only heartbreak...the girl i fell in love with that the day i saw her little gay myspace picture i knew she would be something big and important to my life
you dont have a place in my heart you cant when you are my heart and when you are my world. i'll never call you mine =/ and thats not okay with me . thank you for everything that you've done since we met thank you for being as beautiful as you are for lsitening to me sometimes when i asked not to wear makeup for me because i wanted you to know you were naturally beautiful because i wanted you to feel like a queen like my very own princess. god gives love and i dare him to try and take it away from me i'd do anything and everything for you please be happy for the both of us alyssa okay dont hold back from love if love comes to you again for someone else love them and dont be afraid. everyone says dont let them ever know your there act like you dont care you deserve to know everything and i am here alyssa i wont ignore you i wont do the things i did before :'( im sorry my angel i am things happen for a reason and we stopped talking for you to be finally happy happier than you ever have been and im glad be good
dont forget not only a piece but you are my heart
p.s take your gloucoma drops i'll miss you everyday babygirl mwuah.
Friday, January 15, 2010
darling <3
i havent heard those three words in so long :'(
i miss this girl so much it breaks my heart..i love you..
now im definitely not sleepin nd just watching dexter
never lose hope in love w.o love you can't live.
i swear i'd do anything to have her one more time for at least 5 mins in my arms..
to take her to prom to be her valentine.. i want my babygirl back... sweet dreams she called to say goodnight i cry with a smile on my face tonight =)
i miss this girl so much it breaks my heart..i love you..
now im definitely not sleepin nd just watching dexter
never lose hope in love w.o love you can't live.
i swear i'd do anything to have her one more time for at least 5 mins in my arms..
to take her to prom to be her valentine.. i want my babygirl back... sweet dreams she called to say goodnight i cry with a smile on my face tonight =)
Silly Goose.
i cant man... =/ i just cant she doesnt make it any easier just act like im dead to you please throw away the box erase me from your memory dont think about me dont give me any attention at all since all of it is negative..i love you with all my heart and i dont know how to express how i feel and i dont think ever will.. i hate thigns ended like this but its for the best your happy now and thats the most important thing to me but i need to think about my own well being
im still hopelessly waiting for my love of life to come back
without the love of my life you cant love life
thats my new quote and soon to be tattoo.
dedicated to you.. they say dont ever dedicate tattoos to relationships my first and last heartbreak..yeah that deserves to be tattooed on me
i love you my angel and i always will you havent been the best of persons lately and of course christmas time and the 27th made that harder for you its true everywhere i go i am reminded of you
watchmen..everything we saw that movie on my birthday well we barely even saw it lol
i dont know why im writing this since you wont read it since i told you im makign a new blog ...but if you ever do i cherish you to the highest degree and i never wanted you to feel bad for me babygirl i just wanted you back i wanted prom deep down i wanted lovey dovey all over each other .. i simply grew up and realized what i had too late. i disrespecte ealthough i swear i never kissed another girl while i was with you the things i spoke about were disrespect enough throughout the flaws arguments fighting i found love i found out what it meant to miss something to cherish it to hold it so close that it leaves
you never appreciate someone until they leave you.. learned it the hard way =/ i'll never forget you alyssa but i pray you forget me . this isnt being dramatic im simply feeling 4 years worth of emotions now. and it hurts me more than anything that i dont have you here to wipe my tears to kiss my cheeck to make love to and to fall asleep with..... im tired of crying i still have alot of it to do but i think things will get a little easier eventually probably not while im in ck but hopefully sometime
im glad all of this happened because it reinforced my love and adoration for you alyssa i can say your name a million times and ive said it a million times.. i dont want anybody else i dont want a replacement A i need Alyssa&George. nothing else will suffice i'll be here for anything you need i hope you stay happy plese stay happy i wasn't the most caring loving boyfriend in the world i had a very tough time setting my priorities and getting my life on the right track.. i didnt realize my mistakes until now i miss you hunny . and i did so many wrong things but love shouldl fix things and bullshit that if things dont ever get better between us i dont love you
i doubt your love for me at this point i do... but i can never doubt how much love i can give you that i cannot put an amount on i would honestly be willing to do anything for you
but its too late and its all my fault i wish i didnt do the things i did and act so cold sometimes im sorry bbay i really am and you may laugh or tell me to man the fuck up but a real man can admit his wrongs and try for his true love idc if i sit here crying my eyes out in bed depressed i miss you so much and i cant take it ... =/ come back one day babygirl.. my mom actually understands now she realized i love you and thats it real love when she saw how i felt she says the best thing to do is hope and that i will be sad for a very long time but if i love her i'll wait abd thats what im going to do..
i love you alyssa cedeno.. and ill keep on missing you <3
You've gone through a dozen and one names throughout our history but the last one i'll call you is my true love and my last hope .. i wont die without you but i will be a different person not that i hate this person but i'd rather the person the new better george for you. i love you my angel so so very much and im sorry please forget about me throw everything out i dont want to come between your relationship you found a better love and i can see that. your happier now than you ever with me and thats fine.
time to watch dexter blog.. be back aroun 2-4 ish
i love you my little poptart =/
your silly goose since the beginning until the end i promise to always be here
im still hopelessly waiting for my love of life to come back
without the love of my life you cant love life
thats my new quote and soon to be tattoo.
dedicated to you.. they say dont ever dedicate tattoos to relationships my first and last heartbreak..yeah that deserves to be tattooed on me
i love you my angel and i always will you havent been the best of persons lately and of course christmas time and the 27th made that harder for you its true everywhere i go i am reminded of you
watchmen..everything we saw that movie on my birthday well we barely even saw it lol
i dont know why im writing this since you wont read it since i told you im makign a new blog ...but if you ever do i cherish you to the highest degree and i never wanted you to feel bad for me babygirl i just wanted you back i wanted prom deep down i wanted lovey dovey all over each other .. i simply grew up and realized what i had too late. i disrespecte ealthough i swear i never kissed another girl while i was with you the things i spoke about were disrespect enough throughout the flaws arguments fighting i found love i found out what it meant to miss something to cherish it to hold it so close that it leaves
you never appreciate someone until they leave you.. learned it the hard way =/ i'll never forget you alyssa but i pray you forget me . this isnt being dramatic im simply feeling 4 years worth of emotions now. and it hurts me more than anything that i dont have you here to wipe my tears to kiss my cheeck to make love to and to fall asleep with..... im tired of crying i still have alot of it to do but i think things will get a little easier eventually probably not while im in ck but hopefully sometime
im glad all of this happened because it reinforced my love and adoration for you alyssa i can say your name a million times and ive said it a million times.. i dont want anybody else i dont want a replacement A i need Alyssa&George. nothing else will suffice i'll be here for anything you need i hope you stay happy plese stay happy i wasn't the most caring loving boyfriend in the world i had a very tough time setting my priorities and getting my life on the right track.. i didnt realize my mistakes until now i miss you hunny . and i did so many wrong things but love shouldl fix things and bullshit that if things dont ever get better between us i dont love you
i doubt your love for me at this point i do... but i can never doubt how much love i can give you that i cannot put an amount on i would honestly be willing to do anything for you
but its too late and its all my fault i wish i didnt do the things i did and act so cold sometimes im sorry bbay i really am and you may laugh or tell me to man the fuck up but a real man can admit his wrongs and try for his true love idc if i sit here crying my eyes out in bed depressed i miss you so much and i cant take it ... =/ come back one day babygirl.. my mom actually understands now she realized i love you and thats it real love when she saw how i felt she says the best thing to do is hope and that i will be sad for a very long time but if i love her i'll wait abd thats what im going to do..
i love you alyssa cedeno.. and ill keep on missing you <3
You've gone through a dozen and one names throughout our history but the last one i'll call you is my true love and my last hope .. i wont die without you but i will be a different person not that i hate this person but i'd rather the person the new better george for you. i love you my angel so so very much and im sorry please forget about me throw everything out i dont want to come between your relationship you found a better love and i can see that. your happier now than you ever with me and thats fine.
time to watch dexter blog.. be back aroun 2-4 ish
i love you my little poptart =/
your silly goose since the beginning until the end i promise to always be here
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
theres no time to crawl back to love .. it just keeps going farther away.
i dont know what to do... :'(
i need her to help me... i miss you so much...
like an idiot i look how to get hurt looking at pictures and such
broke another mirror throwing a frame at it ... i need help man....im so hurt its not even funny ... and she doesnt give a damn..but why would she.. i give up on today and tomorrow and rest of senior year.. i simply give up this is all my fault and its all on me im the reason why she doesnt want me why she left me why were not going to prom together and not spending valentines day together and i'll still give her 27 chocolate roses on valentines day and i'll spend my birthday alone and i just wish i had my baby back my girlfriend.... i give up on love on life as of now senior year was over the day she left me and it still hurts even 20 x more as i reminsice and think of how beautiful she is i wish i never did the things i did .... bullshit if god wants us to be together god has nothing to do with this all me i fucked uit up =/ but if she loved me she'd have idk done something =/ i doubt everything now i give up on everyone and everything... no more blogging as of today... its just all depression fuck ck fuck relationships fuck girls fuck everything but her because as angry and sad i may be i'll never see her as anything but my amazing beautiful angel sent to me from god i love you alyssa cedeno and i hope other girls read this cuz bitch i dont want you at all i just want my angel back.. and ill wait =/ goodnight and goodbye blog
8.27.07 214/221
i need her to help me... i miss you so much...
like an idiot i look how to get hurt looking at pictures and such
broke another mirror throwing a frame at it ... i need help man....im so hurt its not even funny ... and she doesnt give a damn..but why would she.. i give up on today and tomorrow and rest of senior year.. i simply give up this is all my fault and its all on me im the reason why she doesnt want me why she left me why were not going to prom together and not spending valentines day together and i'll still give her 27 chocolate roses on valentines day and i'll spend my birthday alone and i just wish i had my baby back my girlfriend.... i give up on love on life as of now senior year was over the day she left me and it still hurts even 20 x more as i reminsice and think of how beautiful she is i wish i never did the things i did .... bullshit if god wants us to be together god has nothing to do with this all me i fucked uit up =/ but if she loved me she'd have idk done something =/ i doubt everything now i give up on everyone and everything... no more blogging as of today... its just all depression fuck ck fuck relationships fuck girls fuck everything but her because as angry and sad i may be i'll never see her as anything but my amazing beautiful angel sent to me from god i love you alyssa cedeno and i hope other girls read this cuz bitch i dont want you at all i just want my angel back.. and ill wait =/ goodnight and goodbye blog
8.27.07 214/221
damn man. . ..
tell me to man the fck up or w.e you want
you broke my heart im hurt im going to be hurt and even after i beg and beg for you to take me back at first and now i beg for some affection to help me stop these feelings or even just a few words you wont give me that then again no 1 said i deserve it ... i miss you so much my amazing angel =/ i love you sweetdreams.
you broke my heart im hurt im going to be hurt and even after i beg and beg for you to take me back at first and now i beg for some affection to help me stop these feelings or even just a few words you wont give me that then again no 1 said i deserve it ... i miss you so much my amazing angel =/ i love you sweetdreams.
:'(
if you read this please call me =/
i cant' do this shit anymore i need you back soon =( please call me soon just to talk at least
i cant' do this shit anymore i need you back soon =( please call me soon just to talk at least
<3 :D
do you think about me as often as i think of you?
visited a car dealer today >:D
of course i connected having a car to her and our plans of having a car lol
i miss you come back soon . <3
i love you =T
I'm here without you baby, but ur still on my lonely mind, I think about you baby, and I dream about you all the time, I'm here without you baby, your still with me in my dreams and of course in my heart
visited a car dealer today >:D
of course i connected having a car to her and our plans of having a car lol
i miss you come back soon . <3
i love you =T
I'm here without you baby, but ur still on my lonely mind, I think about you baby, and I dream about you all the time, I'm here without you baby, your still with me in my dreams and of course in my heart
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
idk
And I said to myself please turn around please wake up please text me wait at the door be there for me love me like you used to =/ and none of them happenedbreaking a tear in my own desk I couldn't even put my head up man.
cant say im tired of this love thing =/ I'd still do anything to have her back even if it was going through this for another couple of months . :l I love you sweety i do =/
This blog wont be enough for today no sleep for tonight is expected why cant she come back :l if i could just hear that she doesnt love me that im just overeacting and being dumb for so long i didnt give in to the whole concept of being in love and now when i do really feel she leaves me and it hurts too much i hate that now she lies to me of all things . i miss her too much and i want to be out of ck already i wont get her back because of how i cant hold my emotions in because of everything ive done in the past but i changed for her and i need her now of all times seeing her everyday does no good for me but neither would not being able to see her
i wish i could transfer i have no real memories in ck just the ones with her they are the only ones that really matter .
i've made an even bigger mistake i told her i hated her i dont mean it of course but its hard to hold my anger wtf do i do? im in love with her and im happy thats it her i love and am willing to give myself to but what do you when that person doesnt want your heart or anything to do with you ... i love you w. all my heart hunny
i wish i would hear it again really dont understand what im going through i miss you babe =/
happy birthday to your pipa.
its stupid i'm waiting for a girl who kisses her boyfriend everyday..
i have yet to do that lol but im not complaining that shes the last girl ive kissed but whats wrong w. me ? seriously.. things need to change and seeing as to how her hobby now is ignoring me . things wont be getting any better. bye bye blog .
cant say im tired of this love thing =/ I'd still do anything to have her back even if it was going through this for another couple of months . :l I love you sweety i do =/
This blog wont be enough for today no sleep for tonight is expected why cant she come back :l if i could just hear that she doesnt love me that im just overeacting and being dumb for so long i didnt give in to the whole concept of being in love and now when i do really feel she leaves me and it hurts too much i hate that now she lies to me of all things . i miss her too much and i want to be out of ck already i wont get her back because of how i cant hold my emotions in because of everything ive done in the past but i changed for her and i need her now of all times seeing her everyday does no good for me but neither would not being able to see her
i wish i could transfer i have no real memories in ck just the ones with her they are the only ones that really matter .
i've made an even bigger mistake i told her i hated her i dont mean it of course but its hard to hold my anger wtf do i do? im in love with her and im happy thats it her i love and am willing to give myself to but what do you when that person doesnt want your heart or anything to do with you ... i love you w. all my heart hunny
i wish i would hear it again really dont understand what im going through i miss you babe =/
happy birthday to your pipa.
its stupid i'm waiting for a girl who kisses her boyfriend everyday..
i have yet to do that lol but im not complaining that shes the last girl ive kissed but whats wrong w. me ? seriously.. things need to change and seeing as to how her hobby now is ignoring me . things wont be getting any better. bye bye blog .
L-O-V-E =F
It's crazy how day by day i saw you slip away and i practically did nothing about it
imissyousomuch my REAL bestfriend my real diary my real love my real number one . i missyoumyamazingangel <3
:'(
i love her . . . . =)
crying? not when your happy about loving someone like her.
No mobile blogging! >=l
Yep, its true apparently i can't mobile blog how dumb is that? i won't be a fucking fag and resort to twitter. -_- whatever its 5:14 am awake pretty early right? well it's because i fell asleep at 9 lol woke up at 430ish
Pride is just like water it can be a great yet it can also be a disastrous thing .
This blog is just a form of letting things out kind of like writing it on a piece of paper nd burning it except in this case you just write and forget you ever did write and keep going .
Why is La boda the first song that comes up on my ipod :l fackers.
it's dangerous to give one certain person all of you or to make your mission to make them happy as can be but in that is where you realize no matter what happens to you may it be physical emotional or spiritual damage you were willing to do whatever no correction you are willing to do whatever for that person . of course that person is Alyssa <3 lmao . call me dumb, whipped, for writing this blog and including her but in a way i am shit not only because i think history wins in the end but you don't just let a girl like that go or in my case push her away and i did that.
too late to right my wrongs? forgiveness was given but doesnt mean i'll be with her again something i have to carry on my back for awhile at least and it really bothers me day in day out
senior year so far- thumbs down. lol deep down everyone including yeah is like ah fuck ck i want to leave of course i want to start a new part of my life in college but damn i'll miss her seeing her veryday even if it was to get a dirty look . or just see her pass by me i knew she was in some way ok...plus you miss the annoying fucks in ck lol
I WANT TO LIVE IN MY HUMANITIES CLASS :l
me pongo a pensar que chucha hago llorando por una mujer la unica respuesta que me doy es amor . pero isi esto es el amor bueno si quiero pasarlo pero solo con tigo .
if you read this good? if not idc like i said before its a way of expression
Time for School in a few until then some Dexter ahh :D lol
niggas wanna say i'm depressed that i've gone missing bla bla no your just gay (fake id this nd that) sure she's not dead to me ever but with her gone i am missing a piece. and i think this ones a permanent hole because that hole wont ever be filled.
"im happy for the next girl".... there is no next girl lol but if there ever is that bitch is going to hate me lmao emotionless george back again. <3 lmao btw dexter is a good show . ! okay fuck off blog !!
Monday, January 11, 2010
=/
Your eyes,
they were the first thing
I noticed about you.
They captured my soul.
In the first second you looked at
Me as a woman I was yours.
Your smile,
It lights up my life,
Brings me more peace than the rain.
I could melt in that smile.
I fall in love with you all over again
Every time I see it.
Your fingertips,
The way they linger on my skin,
So gently I can barely feel them
Sometimes.
Other times smoothing over
My body like a sheath.
Your hands,
That show me your love
In a way that words
Never could.
They bring me safety and steadiness.
Thank you for that.
Your body,
The way it holds my attention,
The way your every nuance
Makes me want you even more than
The last time I saw you.
Your feet,
How could I not love them?
They are the part of you
That allows me to show you how much
I love you.
I can spoil you to death
And there's nothing you can do about it.
I love all these things about you,
But what I love the most,
Is the You I fell in love with.
The You that makes me feel like
I can do and be anything I want to.
The You that lets me know
That I will always have someone Standing beside me, helping me
To be strong and catching me when
I can no longer steady myself.
Thank you.
I Love You.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
The Unread letter.
i miss my girlfriend
correction ex
i miss the late nights on the phone
i miss the yelling at each other
i miss saying i love you . . .
i miss the dates.
but more importantly i miss my first and only love
Alyssa Cedeno... you'll never read this lol but im crazy about you girl
i'll miss staying in watching a movie and eating chinese food . when we didn't have money to go out which was often i'll miss everything good and the bad thanks for three and half years of amazing . we might have cried and fought alot but you taught me love its a shame that its a bit too late now seeing as to your new relationshipstatus but i'm here my angel <3 .
Thursday, January 7, 2010
FACK x2
Scared that its all going to waste that the late nights and endless fights were for nothing .. starting to seem that way but its easier to say its a simple part of life than to actually move on .
not alot of sleep lately too focused on useless things watching Csi, Dexter, South Park just tired of dreaming, its like my dreams are actually better than reality and they revolve around one so its like better off staying awake than sleeping .
at least tonight i ate a twinkie.... shit needs to start getting better need to stop beating myself up .
i'm done blogging for today i guess if you read this idk why you do lawl
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