The End. <3

i dont deserve you back..i was a bad boyfriend simply that i did too much stupid shit and i wasn't there for you enough..but i have to admit i never doubted how pure my love for you was...if you care about me then you'll ask me this blog is done ... i swear my love for you doesnt end. and you'll forever be in my memory not through letters and pictures those are gone but on my own skin. petal #1 i swear i'd do anything and everything to be back with you i prayed that you would take me back and we be happy together but i guess god just doesnt want it to be. im sorry for everything i've done out of all my "promises" the one i know i cant break is that i'll wait for you that if you ever come back i'll be there i hope you enjoy prom im not saying this for pity or to feel bad i really do want you to be happy i realize theres no more WE its just you and me on two completely different sides your doing your thing and i see its working . i dont know how long it will take me to get over you even if i do get over you that doesnt mean i wont love you i'm really confused about my life in general right now i have no clue what my next step is or what to do but you've felt like this before and because of me i really am sorry ! and sadly i have a feeling that the amount of tears in these nearly 2 months has been the same as the ones you've had in all our time together . im not fighting depression due to losing you because i dont know how to.
i know deep down you want me back damn it i just wish you would show an ounce of it =/ i know you looked forward to prom since we were freshmen and its coming soon :D oh god i hate this so much you dont understand alyssa ! you dont i look like death 24/7 its out there man im not the same and i wont be everybody says get over her let it go but i cant its not easy how could you leave me and love again so quickly...
all these fucking songs you tell me to hear you know they make me cry you add to my pain fuck crawling all this bullshit i hate it there is none of that for us =/ there isnt a fucking us we arent shit anymore were just two people about to graduate ..remember that day you said you would treat me like everyone else.. hurt alot but then ive done thngs that hurt you also and im very sorry for all that baby . i mean alyssa i'll never be with you again and losing you has hurt me so much and it still does to this second as i cry while typing this im not ashamed of it though you gave me a heart you made me care about something enough to cry about and be willing to give it my all and for that i thank you i thank you for the time we spent together  for the 27th that i gave your gifts for us trying again with a 214/221 date for the amazing summer for everything for giving yourself to me for being with me for the madden for the jeans thank you for being the best girlfriend you could be . this shouldnt be happening you and me should be together as a hapyp couple i miss you ill always love you and want to be with you .


just one more chance ..just one and i know i would never ever do anything wrong ...



this is my one and only heartbreak...the girl i fell in love with that the day i saw her little gay myspace picture i knew she would be something big and important to my life


you dont have a place in my heart you cant when you are my heart and when you are my world. i'll never call you mine =/ and thats not okay with me . thank you for everything that you've done since we met thank you for being as beautiful as you are for lsitening to me sometimes when i asked not to wear makeup for me because i wanted you to know you were naturally beautiful because i wanted you to feel like a queen like my very own princess. god gives love and i dare him to try and take it away from me i'd do anything and everything for you please be happy for the both of us alyssa okay dont hold back from love if love comes to you again for someone else love them and dont be afraid. everyone says dont let them ever know your there act like you dont care you deserve to know everything and i am here alyssa i wont ignore you i wont do the things i did before :'( im sorry my angel i am things happen for a reason and we stopped talking for you to be finally happy happier than you ever have been and im glad be good

dont forget not only a piece but you are my heart

p.s take your gloucoma drops i'll miss you everyday babygirl mwuah.