Silly Goose.

i cant man... =/ i just cant she doesnt make it any easier just act like im dead to you please throw away the box erase me from your memory dont think about me dont give me any attention at all since all of it is negative..i love you with all my heart and i dont know how to express how i feel and i dont think ever will.. i hate thigns ended like this but its for the best your happy now and thats the most important thing to me but i need to think about my own well being

im still hopelessly waiting for my love of life to come back
without the love of my life you cant love life

thats my new quote and soon to be tattoo.
dedicated to you.. they say dont ever dedicate tattoos to relationships my first and last heartbreak..yeah that deserves to be tattooed on me

i love you my angel and i always will you havent been the best of persons lately and of course christmas time and the 27th made that harder for you its true everywhere i go i am reminded of you

watchmen..everything we saw that movie on my birthday well we barely even saw it lol

i dont know why im writing this since you wont read it since i told you im makign a new blog ...but if you ever do i cherish you to the highest degree and i never wanted you to feel bad for me babygirl i just wanted you back i wanted prom deep down i wanted lovey dovey all over each other .. i simply grew up and realized what i had too late. i disrespecte ealthough i swear i never kissed another girl while i was with you the things i spoke about were disrespect enough throughout the flaws arguments fighting i found love i found out what it meant to miss something to cherish it to hold it so close that it leaves

you never appreciate someone until they leave you.. learned it the hard way =/ i'll never forget you alyssa but i pray you forget me . this isnt being dramatic im simply feeling 4 years worth of emotions now. and it hurts me more than anything that i dont have you here to wipe my tears to kiss my cheeck to make love to and to fall asleep with..... im tired of crying i still have alot of it to do but i think things will get a little easier eventually probably not while im in ck but hopefully sometime

im glad all of this happened because it reinforced my love and adoration for you alyssa i can say your name a million times and ive said it a million times.. i dont want anybody else i dont want a replacement A i need Alyssa&George. nothing else will suffice i'll be here for anything you need i hope you stay happy plese stay happy i wasn't the most caring loving boyfriend in the world i had a very tough time setting my priorities and getting my life on the right track.. i didnt realize my mistakes until now i miss you hunny . and i did so many wrong things but love shouldl fix things and bullshit that if things dont ever get better between us i dont love you

i doubt your love for me at this point i do... but i can never doubt how much love i can give you that i cannot put an amount on i would honestly be willing to do anything for you

but its too late and its all my fault i wish i didnt do the things i did and act so cold sometimes im sorry bbay i really am and you may laugh or tell me to man the fuck up but a real man can admit his wrongs and try for his true love idc if i sit here crying my eyes out in bed depressed i miss you so much and i cant take it ... =/ come back one day babygirl.. my mom actually understands now she realized i love you and thats it real love when she saw how i felt she says the best thing to do is hope and that i will be sad for a very long time but if i love her i'll wait abd thats what im going to do..

i love you alyssa cedeno.. and ill keep on missing you <3

You've gone through a dozen and one names throughout our history but the last one i'll call you is my true love and my last hope .. i wont die without you but i will be a different person not that i hate this person but i'd rather the person the new better george for you. i love you my angel so so very much and im sorry please forget about me throw everything out i dont want to come between your relationship you found a better love and i can see that. your happier now than you ever with me and thats fine.

time to watch dexter blog.. be back aroun 2-4 ish

i love you my little poptart =/
your silly goose since the beginning until the end i promise to always be here